A Lost Love

Clouds of gloom descending,

Heavy in my head,

Heart becoming leaden,

Moving like a pendulum,

Not life's pulsating force.

Pendulum of life ticking

away hours, minutes,

Wasted moments

of pointless love,

Anger, regret and worst of all lazy,

futile nothingness.

I am so sorry,

I could not find the staying power,

Let my life slip by,

Unable to rise

like the phoenix from the ashes,

It's easier this way,

In too much darkness

I am the moon without the sun,

I wanted you to be my light,

But your flames were an illusion,

If I had only known

in the beginning.

by Carol